I am thankful that even though seeing my brothers for only half the day yesterday, that we were able to see them at all. I am missing them terribly now and have held back many tears this morning. We canNOT wait to see them again. Hopefully the next trip they’ll be able to stay for more than half the day.
After an emotional discussion with a fellow student I see that I have so much more to be thankful for than I could ever possibly imagine.
I am thankful for life. To have been able to wake and take my children to school. For close friends and family, even if I want to strangle them most days. I am thankful for being able to pay my rent, utilities and have a new car.
I am thankful for knowing I can go to sleep and know that everything is going to be okay. I am thankful for knowledge and sanity (most days) and happiness. Thankful for being able to attend school and accomplish something and witness a greatness amongst others.
I am thankful for her. Thankful for her heart, her smile, her life… I’m going to make her days better!
I know it’s been FOREVER since I have last written. I’ve been super busy (read: lazy) and something always seems to get in the way of things.
Last weekend I went to Atlanta for the Bronner Brothers Hair Show. Other than the fact that traffic was stupid fucking retarded, it was a great time! I was a little disappointed in the fact that it was more about showcasing, demos trying to sell their products and about being flashy than it was educational. They did have classes, but things didn’t seem to be very organized. I had gone with a mission to buy some good quality shears since I’ve started hair cutting class and the shears the school gives are Pakistan pieces of shit… No, really. I had the hardest time! I didn’t buy a single thing! I’m so damn picky about things and I honestly hate that about myself most days. Lol. So now I will have to buy full price… If I can decide on a pair. Anybody want to donate to the cause?
People were packed in there like sardines and I wanted to go postal! Trying to view products and get past people to see anything was a difficult task all it’s own. Then there was the disappointment in products available for Caucasians, but I had expected that so I wasn’t terribly disappointed and I probably wouldn’t have purchased anything anyway since I’m content with the products I use now. I am super excited about the Premier Birmingham hair show that will be in September or October of this year! From word of mouth, I hear it is more organized and the product selection is indeed better. Want to donate to that cause too? 😉
The past month or so Joseph has been quite the hellion. I really felt at a loss on what to do or how to fix things. He had trouble in school. He didn’t want to go anymore, he even purposely missed the bus one morning. (The short story for that one: I wasn’t dressed and I hadn’t finished getting the girls ready so I sent him to the bus stop without me. He comes back 15 minutes later saying he missed the bus! I was livid! Needless to say he wished he’d got on the bus!) I don’t think there was a day all last month where he had come home with a good report. He was so angry all the time and got to the point where he would hit, kick or throw things at me when he was upset. The only thing that ever seemed to calm him was me grabbing him and just holding him. The whole time he’d be shaking, kicking, screaming, fighting… I found myself go through a depression during all that. I felt as though I had failed as a parent somewhere. I tried and tried to talk to him to approach the situations differently and figure things out and never found the root of the problem. I’m not sure that he even knows what is causing his anger.
Wednesday He ran home with a huge smile on his face and was so excited to tell me that he had not pulled any keys (the schools behavior/disciplinary system)! I exaggerated my excitement and pride hoping that it would help him do better the following day. It worked! Or something did because he came home four days in a row with no disciplinary reports! He was rewarded with praise and time on the Wii as well as other small privileges. He was doing great. Yesterday he had a small issue, but just a small one. So hopefully things continue to go well the rest of the week. Wish us luck!
As far as school goes I have started the first hair cutting module and I’m loving it! I’ve been dying to cut the shit out of these mannequins. I can’t wait to finish and give my first haircut outside of my kitchen. Haha.
I am thankful for one, two, and hell, even three hour long phone calls with my sister Tiffany.
I am thankful for silence on long days and even more thankful for the screaming, fighting and laughter of our children that fills the house when they return from school.
I am thankful to have been able to attend Tressa’s field trip to Petsmart this morning. The look on her face when I showed up was one I’ll never forget. ♥
Joseph is wearing a size 3 shoe and he’s only six!!! He is cursed with his daddy’s clown feet and my OCD… Poor kid.
I have had two whole weeks of TERRIBLE sleep! I have done nothing but toss and turn and cry because I just CAN’T FREAKING SLEEP! Well last night I slept amazingly! I am so freaking thankful for that! I even woke this morning feeling refreshed and happy and awake!
I thought I would be thankful for the kiddos being back in school, but honestly, I really miss them.
I am thankful for being able to smile!